The Great Depression

many has been said about how Depression can turn a powerful nation crumbling down to a third world chaos. of course its about the economy. but for this case, my feelings will become my own third world Chaos. Having travel down south to KL, i have lots of hopes and dreams. i dream i would be occupying my hands with endless love. i dream i could once again look into the eyes of another beautiful human being and tell romantic stories. i dream and dream and made up my own fantasy world.

that fantasy was about to become the Final Fantasy.

instead, i met with endless negative feeling. the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of unwanted. the feeling of even the words itself could not be expressed. Upon teling myself not to think likewise, try to be a positive minded. however, such act would only spark another wave of negative feeling and its the killer this time-depression. Depression can mend or bend a man. this time, it really bent me. twisted and turned like a plastic straw hat knows no boundaries, i was forced to succumb to my feelings. nt only it affected me as a whole, but the people i call dear were too hit by this negative feeling. it gave out such an aura that i can only tell myself "what am i doin here?! " the agony,the sorrow, much to be left untold, poured into my mind like a river raging down the gorge. body tempreature starts to fluctuate like an hour-glass. appetite wears itself out like a rubber scourged to the ground. i feel like being crushed by the endless amount of weight through this feeling.

Depression kills..

no doubt, it can lead to people committing such an act. it drives man mad and push them way above their limit. something like the movie The Happening, were people commit mass suicide when Mother Nature pours out its gas.

i've said enough about this wretched feeling. time for me to get rid of it.